a girlfriend came in built me a bed scrubbed and waxed the kitchen floor scrubbed the walls vacuumed cleaned the toilet the bathtub scrubbed the bathroom floor and cut my toenails and my hair. then all on the same day the plumber came and fixed the kitchen faucet and the toilet and the gas man fixed the heater and the phone man fixed the phone. noe I sit in all this perfection. it is quiet. I have broken off with all 3 of my girlfriends. I felt better when everything was in disorder. it will take me some months to get back to normal: I can't even find a roach to commune with. I have lost my rythm. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I have been robbed of my filth.